New Year's Resolution's

I am probably joining million's of bloggers out there when I say I think New Year's resolution's are stupid. If you want to make a change you should just do it. Just because the date has changed shouldn't be a magical push to get someone to change their ways. But, regardless... There are a few things I want to change and some thing's I desperately need to let go of. I also want to reflect on some of the happenings that occurred in 2012.

2012 in review:

January 2012: My step-mom moved in with my dad. And she's amazing. I absolutely love how I can talk to her about anything. I am also happy that my dad is happy. She's so good to him. Oh and it was a blessing to have her there when I had my squishy. If it wasn't for her, I don't know when I would've eaten or showered. Anyways, she's awesome.

February 2012: My squishy was born. And well... Being a mommy was and is just the best, most wonderful amazing experience ever. Its also heart wrenching as fuck. Everyday, it feels like my heart has left my body and is attempting the craziest things. I love my baby, though and I am so blessed with him.

March 2012: Squishy's first Easter! Little One, of course, doesn't remember it but it was pretty awesome. Otherwise it was a pretty normal month.

April and May 2012 were also pretty low-key for us.

June 2012: Well, it was our one year anniversary and also about one year from when we conceived Little One... So that was pretty awesome.

July 2012: He married her... And the adopted family stayed at my dad's house... We were there then too. Ohmygod I got so much crap about forgiveness I wanted to hurt someone. Oh and on top of this, they didn't invite my dad to their wedding, yet their guests still stayed over at our house. Ugh, I love my dad but I still think that was an idiot move... Otherwise it was a pretty normal month. But that was about the time I started having anxiety attacks again... >.<

August 2012: We MOVED OUT!!!  Its so nice having our own space. Also, my dad and step-mom got married! That was a fun event. Oh and I started going back to college. That was nice. I really missed.

October 2012: Squishy's first Halloween! It was a lot of fun. We took him Trick-or-Treating and he didn't get scared or anything.

November 2012: Well, I was messing around online and I made friends with a really cool guy. He's a really good friend now and I enjoy talking to him. I promise, he's not some crazy weirdo... Well, if he is... It's not like I gave him my address. We skype pretty often but that's about it. Then there's Squishy's first Thanksgiving. My hubby's step-mom fed him too much banana pudding and made him super sick. Oh and then I found out that they all hate me.. Ugh. In-laws... He also cut his first tooth! I also started going back to therapy this month... It seems to be helping...

December 2012: The school semester ended and its nice to have a break. Little One learned to crawl. :O And... First Christmas was awesome. That's about it. The nightmares have calmed down a bit and I have been doing a little better. I also started my first job! I started tutoring at a local elementary school.

So that was my year...

Now... My resolution's...

I need to make more of an effort to stop feeling guilty. I know it was't my fault but I still feel like it was sometimes. I need to move past this.
I would like to lose 5-10 pounds. But who wouldn't?
I hope to make my job more long term.
I really should start reading to my son every night. But he won't sit still.
And...
I should let go... Just in general. I get so worked up sometimes. Ugh.

Anyways, that was my year, mostly. I have the memory of a goldfish. Anyone have any resolution's they'd like to add?