I haven't posted in a really long time. I don't really have a good excuse for myself. I have just been so busy. And tired. School is my life right now. I am just trying to get into the swing of things. But things are going okay. I am doing okay. I have been stressed and am in the process of making some pretty big life choices.
I am changing my major and essentially my career goals. I have pretty much decided I want to major in Deaf Studies and become an interpreter. I have been studying American Sign Language for about a month now and I absolutely love it. It comes easily to me and I am passionate about it. I really love this language and want to immerse myself in it and become a part of this culture. I am still going to get my certificate in Early Childhood Education and I plan to work with deaf and hard of hearing children. Yes, this means I have so much more school and whatnot but I feel really passionate about this. I want this and I think it will be a great fit for me.
Now, my little squish has changed a lot also. Squish has learned how to crawl on his knee's, he can pull-up and he can say 8 words. Squish is also working on his first steps. He will pull-up onto the side of his walker and will shuffle with it when it moves forward. It's so much fun. He also has 8 teeth now. Ah, I love motherhood.
Therapy...
I am going to therapy and I am doing better. But I really think I need to deal with my actual issues and my abuse. Which we really haven't covered. I will be talking to my therapist about this soon and hope we can handle this and get to the core of my issues. I had a nightmare awhile ago but its the first one in about 2 months. Yet, I know its my subconscious wanting me to deal with my problems. There's not much else I can say. I haven't ran into him yet but his wife works at the campus bookstore. I ran into her once but nothing happened. Also, I recently pushed my biological father out of my life. The abusive one... (My History, first post) I decided I didn't want him around my child. He is too toxic.
That's all for now. I will try to write more often but I am just really busy and honestly, I just don't want to write about the pain. I just want it to go away. I want my life to be my life. I don't want to be damaged anymore.
